I can't believe that I'm finally doing something. Mike and I turned in our apartment application on sunday and ofcourse we were approved. I'm told I was being silly for worrying about wether or not we'd get the approval, but what can I say, its something new. When it's something this new, I have to worry. So hopefully by late march or early april we will have the apartment we've been waiting for. We want to get a second floor apartment with a porch/patio. The square footage is a little less than the apartments without the porch, but they are very nice. The porches are all screened in, and they are a very good size. The fitness room they have is amazing. It's almost like going to a full sized gym at the rec center! They've got a full circuit as well as three of each cardio machine you can imagine.
In other news, I'm coming up on my last semester at my beloved TCC. I've applied for graduation and I have begun to pester the graduation application staff to make sure mine goes through smoothly. The due date is the 15th of january, but I want to make sure that any issues are taken care of before it's too late. I have paid my tuition in full and I actually have money to spare for car payments, phone bills, and my water treatment bill. Not to mention, this is all after the holidays. I have to admit, I'm very impressed with myself. This is definately a first, and I don't mind admitting how pleased I am with myself. I can definately feel a change has occured within me and that I really can do what I set my mind to accomplish. My goals aren't just pipe dreams. They can be real and I can follow through. All I have to do is trust myself and do it. I can't say that I'm a huge fan of Nike, but I seem to have adopted their slogan "Just Do It". When it comes down to the wire, that's all one can really do. It's funny, when I decided to go back to school, thats exactly what I told myself. I was wondering if I could really do it and finish and go all the way. After a time of worry, I said "Just Do It!" and I did. Now here I am, ready to finish up school, ready to move out, and ready to start a new life. It might seem a bit over dramatic, but it's true. Once I leave my childhood home, thats it. I can't come back. It's not that I wouldn't be welcomed back, but it's taken me so long to get to this point, I can't let myself retreat to what's comfertable. I want to be a trail blazer in my life.
So it's a New Year, and there are plenty of oppertunities to take advantage of. A "new" goal that I've set for myself is to eat healthy. I know, It sounds like a broken record, but I've already started. Yup, I'm going two days strong. The other night I had my first Panic Attack of the year. I was convinced that I was having a heart attack, ofcourse I was fine, but still. I'm tired of being paranoid that I'm going to die in my sleep this early in life. I know that I'm going to die, I'm not trying to cheat death, but I want to Live... not wait. So, baby steps are what I'm starting with. The eating first, that way I can build up my energy. The walking will come next, and then I'll start working on the gym.
Well, as I'm sure you've gathered, I'm going to graduate this semester. That means, I need to get a real job. Well, to help me with my health goals, I am going to try and apply at Geico and Walgreens. They are not what I have gone to school to do, but it is a stable job that I can count on while I look for my dream job. Also, I have the tools I need to do a bit of free lance work. This way I can build up a portfolio while I go for my goals.
Well, I need to get off my patooty and get to work. So off I go. Good luck to all in your new year.
